It is very early Monday morning or as I like to call it O’ Dark Thirty, my children and the sun are all still sleeping. I turn on my Christmas tree lights, grab a cup of coffee and snuggly blanket and I sit quietly in this space. Truthfully, I’m resisting the urge to turn on the news or check Facebook quick. Instead, I’m closing out Thanksgiving weekend reflecting on this past year. I want to do this before the hustle of the Christmas season takes over and I can only give it a token 10ish min. on NYE. I’m a hard core believer in the power that reflection and gratitude has on our daily lives. Being still and letting things settle in isn’t always easy for me, it’s the still part that gets me, I’m just distracted so easily. Friends, the struggle is real!
I shut out the distractions and focus on being still. It is peaceful, much needed and easier than I expected. On a Monday morning that says a lot! I don’t have to reflect much to know it has been one of those years. It is marked by events that shaped me in ways I could not have anticipated. I experienced brokenness and the loss of core people that consumed my heart and reminded me, once again, that life is so precious. It brought the unwanted conviction to live each day a little differently…More Fully.
There has also been incredible joy and blessings offsetting the sorrow. Others having my back, is completely an understatement over this past year. This abundant love wrapped over my heart, creating a new strength that has left me a little overwhelmed. This is where I publicly pledge my fierce love and loyalty to my sweet family, friends and soul sisters! My framily rocks! (just incase you thought I can’t spell…friends + family=framily)
This year has also taken me by surprise, I had no idea I would be nurturing new roots of growth and risk in my business. My established roots of faith, life experience, and of course all the framily love has helped me to heal, stand strong, and brought the confidence needed to take on new adventures. I believe that if you want an extraordinary life it means taking risks and stepping out of your comfort zone. I had been playing it safe for a long time. As a life coach it is so much easier to help others do the uncomfortable intentional work. Who knew imposing it on myself would be so empowering and intoxicating!
I have spent a lot of time figuring out who I am in light of the ups and downs this year. I see snapshots of me processing over coffee, on walks, on the phone…pretty much to anyone that would listen! It has become clear in conversation and in my quiet time, that this been a year of authentic grieving, healing, establishing new roots and taking risks.
Yesterday I heard a message about waiting. I realize I kept waiting for the right time to completely go after what I love. I have been observing it rather than experiencing it. I want to wait in humble anticipation for the things that matter. The things that transform our hearts and lives. Those things that are a work in progress and are worth the wait.
This is my plan for each day in December and beyond, to experience life as it happens. To talk a little less and listen to that still small voice a little more. I’m done waiting because I am stuck in insecurity, waiting for the right timing, healing to be complete, my jeans to fit better and on and on the excuses go.
It is now hours later and I am once again sitting here in the quiet reflecting as I finish this post. (If you are counting, that is two times in one day! Who knew I could pull that off!…FYI the quiet ends in 9 minutes when the bus arrives!) I am convicted and determined to be fearless in this new year. I don’t just want an extraordinary life, I have an extraordinary life with all its ups and downs!